taste the sun
I spend a lot of time sitting and observing and waiting on people. I take care of them. I listen to them sometimes. I try only to allow for a moment in which we are present together. I feel sorry we can't really know ourselves... in the light that each other sees... but appreciate that we can create space to try. I wonder what space we'll create together if we let each other in?
Focus can harmonize the side of play with the side of do.
But who really teaches who? The but? The person with the most? The most connections? The most transactions? The most numbers? The most feelings?
The most reactions?
Can I be successful if I never make others react?
Of course. Life provides meaning but only the moment brings success.
Sometimes I'm floating just out of it because I like to watch success unfold. Most times I'm not so far gone. I drink a lot of caffeine and smoke weed and work a corporate job. So I can feel sorry about a lot. But I try not to feel depressed because I know a lot of presents are discarded. All of us share our time... as excruciating as some moments feel.
I constantly question my vices in hopes of recognizing their position as I orient my being toward my mistakes.
Before anything I'm only a body of thoughts. After everything I'm nothing. So, I'm just becoming. That's probably why I'm exhausted. I don't honor the moment by giving myself rest and letting my pursuits breathe and sit with me. I want to understand my energy but I take it for granted because I'm lead to believe success is exhausting.
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